- 27th August 2014 - ♡

28.8.2014

最近, 心很烦躁, 很伤心, 很辛苦, 很讨厌生活。

人活在这世上, 要是发生什么事, 要嘛就直接死掉, 要嘛就健健康康的活着。不要被折磨, 不要变成一个托尼带水的人。托尼带水, 不但手尾长, 连累了自己也连累了别人。
我一定要变得更自立 !! 我以后一定要去别的地方做工, 即使是再辛苦。有机会, 我一定会离开。一定要做得到 !! 在外面总比在家开心, 在家, 会想太多, 烦太多; 在外面, 顾自己, 不必想不关自己的事。☺

- 23rd August 2014 - ♡

23rd August 2014
- Saturday -

Start study for final exam...
However in the mid way of study...
A sudden think of him...
Scroll wherever, and he is not in, due to blocked... and a sudden shock... i saw him liking people's photos in Instagram...
I was though that he will forever disappear from Instagram...
When i press on his Instagram and scroll for all the photos he uploaded...
It was all memories for me...
From the very beginning, til the date he stop to post photos...
I still remember i asked him to download and play Instagram... ><
He have been long lost from Instagram.

Well, emo for a little while... and then go sleep... and after dinner, back to study mood. Copy tutorial answers... and study !!

Owh Poh Lin... Study Smart Please...

Thank You~

*losing of this guy, is my forever 遗憾, 遗憾不能让他更爱我. - put in deep deep heart forever*

Regards,
Poh Lin ♡

- 23rd August 2014 - ♡

23rd August 2014

Hey, it's the end of week 13, which mean next week is the last week of study for this semester... time flies...

Final Exam is around me, yet im still havent prepare any subject for the final exam yet. T.T

Study Study Study...
Promised to myself, must finished study.

Here today is to write a story, a dream i made yesterday night.
I dream of him. Text-ing with him with only 1 inbox and 1 outbox. Content of the dream was that dated for a meal, dont know its a brunch/lunch/dinner, not really remembered, wait for so long, why still havent reached yet. Then a sudden, an inbox from him "I'm sick, How ?"... and my response was cool.. "Okay, then you rest at home ba.". After that dont know how it's going, and woke up. It's a dream.

Well, I'm worried. I'm scared. I feel we are no lpnger can be friend like before... how we chit chat and wasting time on each others...
I really feel sad, because i did not cherish the relationship between me and him, and end up with this bad situation.

Promise to myself, i want to flip a thousand cranes. For him.
Period of time is until i finished my study.
I dont know is it possible to give it to him.
I want nothing from him, just to let him know... 'I knew we are no longer possible as you mentioned when we break, i have no authority to bring any hope on it as well. Just to say - Long Time No See... i hope you are all well and good.'
Before giving out this cranes, i must make sure that he have no new gf, new relationship and no new admire. If there is, then those cranes, i will keep to myself. Because there is nothing else to disturb his life anymore.

G.L.K.Y, i do miss you a lot and think of you.
I knew you are feeling bad on blocking me, i hope someday after a period of time, you will remembered me and unblocked me. By the way, im trying to released myself from your heart. I hope we are all good and keep as a deep deep memories between us.

Thank You.

Regards,
PohLin ♡

- 17th August 2014 - ♡

16th and 17th August 2014

UTAR 19TH CONVOCATION - AUG'14

These 2 days went to UTAR Kampar convocation with friends...
Sick mood... cheated mood...
16th went with my bff, a friend that known each others almost 10years... - Camie Chua

In this days, i drop tears... coz of i saw a msg through her phone.. which msg from him...
-content- just ignore... i miss him so much... the msg been months... before his birthday... he tot im sot dy... :(
I want to say im not, im just trying to remind him, what we have go through and hope he know i still love him...
Anyway... im so sorry for crying and saw her phone msg...
Ya, im very unhappy for these 2 days, coz of sick and miss him a lot a lot... and he might disappear for a period of time... i hope he will remember me and appear back when times pass through... T.T

In the convocation, i enter the big hall again... the 2nd time step in !!
This time attend convo really feel emo, the main reason is, i dont know whether i have the chance to step up to the stage... and if and only if, i have the chance to step up to the stage, he will no longer appear and be my camera boy... he - GLKY. Because im not his who amd he is not my who anymore...

I sat inside for a quite long time, i think and look at all of them step up to the stage one by one, and tell myself...
"Someday, i MUST step up to this stage !! I MUST DO IT !!!"
not only for myself... it is also for my family and all friends that always support me...

So, you must do it !!!

2nd day, went for Felicia Convocation...
Both days, look for their families so happy and proud of them... i felt touched... i felt... and i feel, i must have it someday... but at the moment, i have no this motivations, cause i worried i failed and cant make it then i will more disappointed to myself... T.T

En.. +oil and all the best, Poh Lin..
You must do it and invite all of them and invite him if you really graduate !!!

Really hope someday will meet him.
I really miss him a lot...

-Hope there is a hope-

Regards,
Poh Lin ♡

- 14th August 2014 - ♡

今天,
我很不乖, 又哭了。。。
因为他, 又哭了。
哭得很累。。。

放学回到家, 吃药就睡觉。
睡醒了, 又哭, 因为没人在家。
因为他从此消失在我的网路里, 和电话里。
我就依旧发简讯给他。

我真的很希望看着他的放弃去坚持自己想要的而向他学习。

我会很想他。
也会很希望他能够原谅我。
并且再面子书做回我的朋友, 即使不再聊天也可以证明他过得很好。

觉得晕晕的, 因为哭太多了。

林锦勇, 因为爱你太深, 所以一定要放弃你。

我要加油, 我会加油的。

答应自己要读书的, 可是卻做不到。
太没用了。

请做好自己的本分吧, 笨蛋傻婆。♡

要耐心的等待。=)

Regards,
PohLin♡

- 13th August 2014 - ♡

How are you today ??

It's time to study hard...
3 more weeks to go for my final exam this round...

5papers in 4days...

Nothing much hope and words i want to say...
Just wish i can pass my papers and finished study in UTAR life...

To graduate, is a kind of unknown to me...

No hope at all... =(

Study hard, play hard in life without love. ♡

< yeah~ im getting thinner and darker >

Regards,
PohLin ♡

- 13th August 2014 - ♡

This first post,

A brand new bloggie for myself...
For the life without him...

First post,
I want to memorised all about the 1 and a half years relationship with him (G.L.K.Y).
The date we begin is on 3.11.2012 &
The date we ended is on 10.4.2014
Although our relationship is not as long as we expected...
I expected it to be last for forever...
After break up with him, i did something crazy... i keep on disturbing him, i keep on send something to him.. until he felt annoyed and cant tahan...
On the date after his birthday, he blocked me (29.6.2014) in whatsapp as well as in facebook... after a few weeks, he unblocked me... yet he still remaining the same decision to end up with our relationship.
On these day, 8.8.2014, he blocked me again in whatsapp.. and today 13.8.2014 he blocked me in facebook.. both facebook account blocked by him... due to my stupididise, i told him the truth that i knew he is in my another account, and then he blocked me...
Ya, this is out of my expectation.

I felt sorry for being annoying him and made him block me.

Ya, he is never ever think to be my forever spouse and partner from the beginning until the end and i have bring too much of expectation and hope to wish he will be my forever. Ya.. sorry, Gary Lam.. sorry for my crazy doing and not independent at all..

Ya, if there is another chance to choose, i want to say, i still will choose you. Really. Serious.

Thank You for letting go, thank you for leaving, thank you for not loving.

Sorry for my fault, sorry for whatever i did wrongly to you. Really sorry.

All i want to say is just the same words...

I Love You

&

Take Care in our own life... ♡

Hope you will remember me and
I will bring a hope and wish someday of your unblocked.
I dont wish to bring this bad thing until i die... must be unblocked me in the future. Okay. =)

Thank You.

Regards,
PohLin ♡